Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Talking

So, an area that the Lord has really been working on in my life is the area of prayer; I shared that with you before. I have always wanted to pray regularly. However, I think I have really been missing out on what prayer CAN be-not something to do, but a relationship.
I know this sounds silly, but I wanted to have things just "right" to pray. You know, boys asleep, coffee in hand, house picked up, life as it should be. OR the opposite way my prayer life looked was in the midst of a trial, offering those whispers of help and that would be all I could get out, or just crying out at God. But, I am learning to view prayer as conversation-dialogue. That means there are sentences from me and then times when I am quiet (those that know me in real life might start to laugh at that one). I haven't taken time to talk with Him this week, not really. I have talked at Him. He knows I have toddlers and what my life looks like and He isn't angry that I haven't talked WITH Him more. Oh no. Not Jesus. He is waiting and inviting me to come and practice the blessing of visiting with Him. No agenda. Sharing with Him my heart, my struggles, my sin-can you believe He wants to help me with that? What a precious Friend...and when all I can get out is the whisper, "help," He is all over it interceding where I can't go, cause I am not Him, but man am I thankful for this blessing I like to call conversational prayer. It is powerful folks...

2 comments:

J said...

I am so with you on this one. I like things "just so" when I spend time with Him and find myself so distracted if they aren't...and then I am quick to limit prayer to that specific time with Him, and then go about my day as if He isn't right there with me every moment. Thanks for being encouraging and transparent. I appreciate you!

Paula (SweetPea) said...

Amen sister. I posted recently based on the book study, that prayer and time with God really is a privilege. That really got me to thinking differently...to TRY not to blow Him off and time with Him off by the wind. To see the Almighty of the Almighty is honored to hear me and be with me in prayer and devotion.