Well, today I had a conference for Early Childhood Educators. I cried a couple of times-not real typical of me. I'm not tough, but not a softy either. I am going back to work after almost six years at home. The good news is, I will work until 12:00 each day of the school year and thankfully will be with my boys. It just hit me today I am re-entering a world that has left me behind and it is a big step. When I was a "young" teacher, I felt so on top of it. Maybe I was just naive, but I felt on top of my game back then. I have spent a lot of time up in my room and have accomplished very little. I am getting nervous about it and that is really out of my comfort zone. I usually feel prepared and ready for school to start. At least I did before kiddos. Now... I said, "Good Night" as I told my MIL goodbye this morning when I left at 7:15 a.m. for the conference. I can't think if the number still has a 7 in front of it. Good thing I don't have to be at school until 8:10! :)
Don't get me wrong, I can't wait to go back. I LOVE teaching, I am just going through some different emotions. I am going to miss my Bible Study that meets on Weds. a.m. I have bid my coffee on Thurs. mornings at Atlanta Bread Co. goodbye along with the gals that made it so fun. :)
BUT, (yes, I am starting my sentence with but) I am gaining time with my precious children whom I don't know yet. I am praying for them. I know they will give meaning and purpose behind the time I spend preparing. I will actually be with my own preschoolers more...no tricken Mama on how we act at school. LOL. I love to teach. Teaching is breathing to me.
So, now I will just work through the emotions of change. That is what it is...Change.
I bet those kids will even like my rainbow with glitter letters even though it's not proportional.
P.S.-For you teachers. Have you seen the REALLY cute chart paper with polka-dot borders? I got some today....It makes writing happy. ;0) Great for class stories or Daily News.
Will post pics tomorrow of fun times last week.