I am to serve....

Reminder to self:

I am here to serve, not be served.

What does this look like?

When I don't want to clean, I do it anyway.

When I don't want to put away laundry, I choose to get it in those drawers.

When my children want a story read and I simply don't know if I have the energy to get the words out, I read it.

When they need a little extra snuggle time, I put my bath off until later.

When they need discipline, even though I am weary and would like to overlook the offense, I address it calmly, but with authority.

I am a woman, a child of the King.  He does not need my service.  I am not in debt to Him.  If I were in debt, we would be bartering grace for good works.  No, I am given grace freely.  He doesn't need my works, but He loves me.  He wants me and by His mercy, I have Him.  I can trust Him, He just wants me to keep my eyes up.  He wants my heart-all of it.  From this, will come the peace I desire, imperfect as it is this side of heaven.  It is the calm of knowing, I can rest in Him as I go about my day.  Yep, even when I choose to serve myself, I desire more and more to confess and move on.  Viewing each activity as allowed by Him, either a divine appointment or an opportunity to serve myself.  

This goes against my core.  We are taught that we "deserve" something.  Fill in the blank.  Your deepest hurts come from a rooted thought of self deserving something.  Mine do.  We deserve HELL.  Yep.  You, me, whoever is reading this blog and those that aren't.  That is what we deserve.  But God, in His divine plan, provided a Redeemer for you and me.  Jesus Christ.  He was either a crazy man, or truly the VERY Son of The Living God.  I believe that He was and is who He claimed.  He died on the cross that I might have that which I do NOT deserve, heaven.  There is nothing good about me, nothing "heaven" worthy.  Except, that I have placed my faith in Jesus. He came to serve, not be served.  The very Sunrise of Heaven dwelt among us........

As you go about your day tomorrow and I go about mine, may we remember the Sunrise of Heaven and serve, not out of debt-we cannot repay that which has been given(it cost Him his life), but out of FREEDOM!